Wednesday, September 22, 2010
!!! Past .... Still not too Far !!!
Why when forgetting past relationships, either good or bad, all the reliability and trust ends with the end ofthat relation.
Every time people from your past tell tales about you it makes you wonder whether you should be trusting the relationship you are in at present or not..
Nobody can predict the life of a relationship, Nobody can vouch for its sustainability, but some people from your past relationships, even when out of your life, still can stop you from being yourself in your present relationships.
You share yourself innocently with people you trust and rely on. Same relationships when breaks and your innocence in used by the people from your past with out any second thought makes you an introvert in your all future relationships thinking or rather wondering who will be the next one using you till your innocence dies away and you become like others, I still wonder, I do wonder....
Written By - Ritika Patel - "In Disappointment"
Monday, September 20, 2010
!!! Love ...... is it???!!!
"Love" for me was always overrated. The need of being with someone all the time and when apart the constant wondering what your love is up to and where he is, what he is doing. The desperate feeling of immediately sharing a wonderful experience or news with him or the excitement of meeting him, when you wait for your wall clock to tick away to your desired time.
I remember laughing it off when I use to see others going through this, "what a terrible state of mind" use to be my reaction. And I completely dismissed these feelings of the ones who did felt the same with me. As I was more to them than they were to me. But I was never able to connect with them that deeply even though I stayed in the relationship sometimes for their sake sometimes for the sake of the useless habit of seeing them in my life day in and day out.
Ironically now finding myself in the same situation, I hear the distant laugh of the people, the ones who are already way ahead than me in this journey. Feeling, what I feel every second of the day for you, I cannot fathom why "love" should not be overrated.
With your presence in my life my past seems so lifeless. With your presence in my days my past days looks like a dark night. With your presence in my nights I never knew that darkness could be filled with shine. I can never say now I regret the time we saw each other on that first night.
As you take my hand I get pulled towards life. As you hold me I can feel freedom from the invisible bonds of my past. I wonder now, is this what they termed as "Love" & I wonder is it here to last. I asked you that day "what it is?" you replied almost spontaneously saying "Love, what else do you think" as you smiled that killing smile.
In your eyes promises I do see. In your words calmness and peace I do feel. In your presence the clouds from eclipse disperses leaving me to bath under the rays of your love. I wonder if this is the love I do feel I wonder is this the Love I did see. Sharing words with you is always comforting, I never knew sharing silence could be so fulfilling. Why in your arms I do feel complete. Why without you my days are so obsolete.
Why my heart churns every time I see your name on the incoming call, why I curse the night after biding you goodnight. I wonder how long I will be able to keep this; I wonder how long will it be when it will be your time to leave too.
Love, I understand why you hold me tighter in every meet whispering promises for keeping my clouds of confusion away till we bid. Baby, I understand why you flip when we are apart because you know my way too practical mind will be building dams over my feelings to stop them from pouring. But I want to ask you how can you understand that it’s your hold that is keeping me with you, Baby how could you understand it’s your care and understanding of my mind and soul that I am connected to you so deeply. You asked me that day "So, What do you think it is? As usual my confused soul and practical mind snapped back answering you with another question "Love......is it??? And we laughed together for the hundredth time.
Written By - Ritika Patel
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
!!! The Winner Takes It All !!!
Friday, September 10, 2010
!!! Random Scribbling !!!
I have been very lucky to be blessed with friends so wonderful that I am still in contact with all the close friends from my school, Graduation College and PG College. I just can’t imagine my life without this piece of puzzle called "friends" in my life which makes my life all the more exciting and adventures.
It’s amazing the kind of relationship I share with my friends, even after not being in contact for days together at times we still can talk for hours, when we do call - up, and talk about anything under the sun. I love such wonderful and easy relationships in life.
Recently, I got an SMS from an old contact of mine showing concern of my whereabouts. It’s so wonderful to get these messages from close knit friends because you exactly know they are your forever well wishers and so your answers are always honest if life is good the answer is so, and if not you tell the truth. But you get into a little confusion while answering to people like the one in question here. These people are the one who “only” act like your friend because they don’t have any and they are in need for friendship.
These People or so called "Friends" try to keep "you" as a "closest friend" in their life because they have none, and you fail to understand that, even when others try to make you see the reality because you are blinded with the temporary truth and satisfaction. All this while they play well with their convenience because they know you have everything to offer them - happiness, courage, calm, peace and support.
But these are the people who are the first ones to run away from you when you are so troubled with life that you run out of things like this to offer. This is the time when they see their convenience shoved out of the door and they start cutting corners. Or in some cases so called "friends" like this can shove you out of the door when they get the same things fulfilled with other people who are probably less troubled with life and willing to offer things which you temporary fail to offer.
But thankfully this troubled times in your life will help you see who is important in your life or who should be important in your life and this acid of troubled times which is burning you so deep can also help in dissolving the mask of these so called "friends" too. This is when you see their face, hear their real thoughts and feel their coldness. This is the time you see how much they are hating you and your troubles because they have to act like a support in it, this is the time you hear all their curses, curses so bad which can send a chill through your spine, this is when you feel how unacceptable your down turn is to them, all this while they fail to remember you were like a strong pillar in their bad times or you gave them an ear at the middle of the night.
This is when I get confused thinking what should I answer to such SMS's from these people because whatever curse they gave me in order to shove me out of their life has not come true as yet. Or what ever bad place they wished for me to be in, I am not there. How many times they made me realize that I never had anything to offer, to any one, in anything what so ever. And since that day I have been showered with only wonderful people, friends and companion in my life who constantly tells me how important I am to them.
So, when asked by these kinds of people - If I am keeping good? Then according to their definition of what "good" should be in my life (aka their wishes/curse for me). I should reply that "I am not at all good", in fact, unfortunately for them only the things I wished for has happened to me and none that they wished for me. So answering this will satisfy both the sides ... is'nt it?? LOL
Scribbled By: Ritika Patel
It’s amazing the kind of relationship I share with my friends, even after not being in contact for days together at times we still can talk for hours, when we do call - up, and talk about anything under the sun. I love such wonderful and easy relationships in life.
Recently, I got an SMS from an old contact of mine showing concern of my whereabouts. It’s so wonderful to get these messages from close knit friends because you exactly know they are your forever well wishers and so your answers are always honest if life is good the answer is so, and if not you tell the truth. But you get into a little confusion while answering to people like the one in question here. These people are the one who “only” act like your friend because they don’t have any and they are in need for friendship.
These People or so called "Friends" try to keep "you" as a "closest friend" in their life because they have none, and you fail to understand that, even when others try to make you see the reality because you are blinded with the temporary truth and satisfaction. All this while they play well with their convenience because they know you have everything to offer them - happiness, courage, calm, peace and support.
But these are the people who are the first ones to run away from you when you are so troubled with life that you run out of things like this to offer. This is the time when they see their convenience shoved out of the door and they start cutting corners. Or in some cases so called "friends" like this can shove you out of the door when they get the same things fulfilled with other people who are probably less troubled with life and willing to offer things which you temporary fail to offer.
But thankfully this troubled times in your life will help you see who is important in your life or who should be important in your life and this acid of troubled times which is burning you so deep can also help in dissolving the mask of these so called "friends" too. This is when you see their face, hear their real thoughts and feel their coldness. This is the time you see how much they are hating you and your troubles because they have to act like a support in it, this is the time you hear all their curses, curses so bad which can send a chill through your spine, this is when you feel how unacceptable your down turn is to them, all this while they fail to remember you were like a strong pillar in their bad times or you gave them an ear at the middle of the night.
This is when I get confused thinking what should I answer to such SMS's from these people because whatever curse they gave me in order to shove me out of their life has not come true as yet. Or what ever bad place they wished for me to be in, I am not there. How many times they made me realize that I never had anything to offer, to any one, in anything what so ever. And since that day I have been showered with only wonderful people, friends and companion in my life who constantly tells me how important I am to them.
So, when asked by these kinds of people - If I am keeping good? Then according to their definition of what "good" should be in my life (aka their wishes/curse for me). I should reply that "I am not at all good", in fact, unfortunately for them only the things I wished for has happened to me and none that they wished for me. So answering this will satisfy both the sides ... is'nt it?? LOL
Scribbled By: Ritika Patel
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
!!! I Dont Need You ... Or Do I ?? !!!
We dont belong together,I am aware
Neiher do we share any strings that can pull us back
How strange once connected with our souls
Now apart, as we were never together..
Leaving you is the wisest move of my history
As you only used me always, I am aware
But still sometimes its your and only your memories
That can put me to sleep in rutheless nights...
Now I am using you, are you aware???
Written By : Ritika Patel
Friday, August 27, 2010
!!! Love in First Night !!!
In between florescence of reflecting lights
like the sun plays around the sea shore
I could feel your aura as you entered the door
In between that deafening music
I could hear your breathing
And my friends teasing
Under that domed roof our eyes met for the first time
Like magnets desperate to end friction between them
I walked towards you as you did towards me
Losing myself In the trance of your magnitude
I moved with your every move
Your hands around my waist
Closing my eyes to feel your taste
Lost in the Ecstasy of the night
May be it was love at first site
or the convenience to escape the dark light
We lost each other in our first site
And tried finding the way back all the following nights
Restless soul of mine wandered around
When you tried to hold me as I shattered after every round
We shared our childhood holes
Some complete and incomplete dreams
The people who broke us
The friendships that ruined us
The love that remained away
And companions that never crossed the way
You gave me everything, you said
With my silence you looked away
I am too broken I said
Can you give me the friendship I craved
Can you love me so bad that I can forget
Can you mend my soul so that I stop looking for the missing pieces
and the ones that i lost along the way
I am too broken I said
Stay away or you would find yourself destroyed
Your hold got tighter and your kiss wilder
And I felt the peace in my restless soul...
Written By - Ritika Patel

like the sun plays around the sea shore
I could feel your aura as you entered the door
In between that deafening music
I could hear your breathing
And my friends teasing
Under that domed roof our eyes met for the first time
Like magnets desperate to end friction between them
I walked towards you as you did towards me
Losing myself In the trance of your magnitude
I moved with your every move
Your hands around my waist
Closing my eyes to feel your taste
Lost in the Ecstasy of the night
May be it was love at first site
or the convenience to escape the dark light
We lost each other in our first site
And tried finding the way back all the following nights
Restless soul of mine wandered around
When you tried to hold me as I shattered after every round
We shared our childhood holes
Some complete and incomplete dreams
The people who broke us
The friendships that ruined us
The love that remained away
And companions that never crossed the way
You gave me everything, you said
With my silence you looked away
I am too broken I said
Can you give me the friendship I craved
Can you love me so bad that I can forget
Can you mend my soul so that I stop looking for the missing pieces
and the ones that i lost along the way
I am too broken I said
Stay away or you would find yourself destroyed
Your hold got tighter and your kiss wilder
And I felt the peace in my restless soul...
Written By - Ritika Patel
Saturday, August 21, 2010
!!! When Broken !!!
Your feelings as precious as diamonds
Your laughter like jingle bells
I will keep it in my heart
Till the diamonds lose its shine
And the bells loses its Chime
Your words like a musical note
Your sound like a nightingales’ charm
I will keep it in my heart
Till the music stops
And the charm is lost
Your love like a midnight sun
Your caress like a breeze on the cotton bun
I will keep it in my heart
Till the eclipse struck
And the storm breaks my luck
Your memories having every season
Waiting for you without any reason
I will keep it all cherished in my heart
Till the Season fades away
And rational reasons get in way
Our essence lost in the sands of time
As my heart laments for the broken charm & chime
How long will I keep it in my heart?
Sand castles once broken couldn’t be formed again
Heart bonds once broken, couldn't be tied again.
Written By - Ritika Patel
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
!!! You .... My Love !!!
Life changed, Meaning of renascence I understood now,
Relationship I Reaped, Meaning of sowing I understood now,
Diminishing Restlessness, Meaning of peace I understood now,
Surrounded Happiness, Meaning of prayers I understood now
You are to me, as hunger is
For a kid starved for a century
You are to me, as thirst is
For pedestrian fooled by mirage in desert county
You are to me, as belonging is
For an orphan by destiny
You are to me, as love is
For a vacuous soul like me….
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
!!! Rage of Unspoken Emotions !!!
Disgusted from my heart
With this natures virtue of life
As I stood in the line
Waiting for my share of Shine
I live with the rules of my nurturing
Morals I walked on, clutching
Dreams I believed on, hoping
Relationships I worked on, Trusting
All shattered with a deafening thud on my "Life's" Ground
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down..
As I walked on the edge of destiny
Hands clutched me on this ride, so topsy & turvy
I cannot fathom the price they asked in returned
Because of them now I shun my heart, so broken
Laughing memoirs of happiness and warmth,
Reflected through the tear I dropped on my broken crown
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down
Continued to walk aimlessly
Awareness lost in the illusions of reality
Offering insolence, grudging over my destiny
Hoping for courage to avenge for life's cruelty
I gainsaid the god's game asking for a showdown
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down
Those hands asked for a filthy price
They supported me once but now they made me fall
Blinding me as they flaunted their own shine
I never invaded others dream
I never questioned others sheen
Then Why, when I am in the dark alley
They flaunt their meaningless trophy
When my heart only prayed for them to win the crown
In front of them they expect me to bow
When I still await my Stars to Shine down
Stabbing pain in heart, life so impossible
Burning tears, vision so impossible
Choked throat, speech so impossible
Broken strength, Faith so impossible:
For my Life to gain the Momentum..
For the Light to show me the Direction..
For the Reasons behind the Broken Relations..
For Explanations behind Failed Initiations..
For Dusk that never reached the Dawn
As I still wait for My Stars To Shine Down....
Written in - "Rage"
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Sunday, July 25, 2010
!!! Women as She is !!!
A very touchy write - up by a girl - of her life and experience, A life lived by one but is a story of many ....
http://ibnlive.in.com/blogs/archanajahagirdar/2770/61955/a-depressed-dad-being-single--life-in-between.html
http://ibnlive.in.com/blogs/archanajahagirdar/2770/61955/a-depressed-dad-being-single--life-in-between.html
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