!!! Night of Love !!!

That was the night of love…..
When you walked away….
I was standing there praying
That you will look back….
But you never bothered to do so.
I was standing there praying
That I could see the love in u that lacked…
But you never bothered to show so.
That was the night of the judgment of my life…
When you walked away….
We fought, we shouted, we screamed.
You were upset…
But I was happy…
After ages I had your full attention….
That was the night of beginnings of all endings…
When you walked away..
Why did u left me behind..
How could you leave me behind…
When I was your mornings..
Your nights..
Your heart..
Your life….
But you never understood…
You were my soul….
Every possible reason for me to live….
That was the night ….I died..
The very night you walked away..
You simply walked away…
And with your every step which moved away from me…
You erased every reason for my life to exist….

Holding On

There seems to be no one,

I seem to be alone,
Surrounded by people,

Supposed loved ones,
I still feel alone.

They don’t seem to notice.
I lean back, against the couch,
Closing my eyes,
I simply listen.

Random memories flash,
Of long ago days -
Reflected in this new one,
And I add this moment
To the exceeding pile

Of similar states of minds.

I cry a little every day

on the things I can not change
Things that others find minuscule,

I feel their hurt, I cry their tears,
For people’s dream that go unfulfilled
For relationships that..

once was the reasons of prayers.

This is not me;

this is not what I was meant to be.

Why my heart is denying

the existence of my soul,
Sensitivities I can't describe,

it just jolts through my heart.

I wish I could explain it somehow,

but I don’t know where to start.
I don’t want to care;

I don’t want to smile

I don’t want to turn around
And see if things are okay
There tears make me cry,

when they feel genuine pain,
It’s something I can read.

I cannot even control it,

I don want to feel it,
But I cannot control it,

I was meant to feel it.

I wish that I could show you;

you'd see that this is real.
Because I know that deep down inside,

this will always be a part of my life.

!!!Lost Soul!!!

When winds were hard, and sun ruthless,
And moon was shy, when the time was timeless,
When I looked different, when I felt different,

That time I think of you,
“You” who gave me hope,
“You” Who gave me dreams,
“You” who gave me wisdom,

I met you every time-
Every time I could touch my soul,

and every time I could breath,
And every time I could dance, a

And every time I could smile,
And every time I wanted to

or I could live.

“You” were there to whisper,
Words of happiness, words of beauty,
Words of souls, Words of different world,
But yet words of reality,
And now I ask you - where are you,
Where could I find you, and you replied,
“IN YOU”

Smile and you will be able to feel me,

dance and I will dance with you
Find your soul and

you will find me right there,
Fulfill your dreams

and then we shall meet,

And I realized I have forgotten

what it feels like to smile,
How can I find my soul

when I don’t know where I am?

I can’t remember my dreams,

than what should I fulfill,
I could hear rhythms everywhere,

different rhythms, all kinds of rhythms
But none I like, then how could I dance,

I don’t remember what it feels like to be alive;

feels like to be loved,
How long it has been, I can’t remember,
And again I asked you –

can I get all this back.

Can I find you again,

will I ever be able to dance again,
Will I ever be able to feel love,

Will I ever be alive again?
Will I? ………. will I?

And I thought I heard your answer,

I heard something,
And then dropped a tear
listening the echo of my own voice…...!!!!