!!! Blog Walking !!!

Heart just ruptures
As it hears the silence of the moment
Desperately trying to connect
At least with one who can tell
What you are feeling day in & day out

I do blog walking whole night
Trying to capture the peace of mind
Trying to find someone who has feelings like mine
As it scares to be only one with the emotions so lone

Many I see have the same words like mine
Others go deep with phrases defined
Some capture the moment and makes a story
Others just randomly touch you so whole heartedly

I do blog walking whole night
I find tears that shares the same rhyme
I find profound expressions, for which I was once coveted
I stumble upon prayers for faith and hymns of love
I see everything I need too I still am empty handed

I do blog walking whole night
To find words for upheaval of this sensation
To find expressions, for what I sought in this commotion
I take this journey to find at least one to match with
But we stand differentiated by our own present & past
Yet I find uncanny similarities of life in each heart

I do blog walking whole night
To shoo away the blues and feeling of solitude
For once to get away from the love crap, the frustration and the maze of relations
But I find that the world is dominated (happily/unhappily) by only one word “Emotions”

Written By - Ritika Patel

!!! Renaissance !!!

Emotions so alive in me

Had wandered paths of thorn n dust

Have been slaughtered and shunned

Searching for the destination undefined

Waiting for breezes to calm the wounds

Asked him hundred times for the showdown

Every time he said love is the only cure

Moment I stopped to weigh his words

I saw that I am standing at your door

Stunned as I was I couldn't move,

We understood each others emotional tour
The wait was too long, it has ruptured our soul

Now I dont look at windows every dawn

Now I don't look for your sight in the crowd

Now I have you and you have me

With and Within each other
We were from two different worlds
Unrelated to everyone who exist in it
Came together to make our own world

As we dwell in Renaissance!!!

Written By: Ritika Patel "Result of a Blissful Fight with Self - as "you" like to call it"

!!! A Backward Walk !!!

Flipping through the pages of my life,
I saw some forgotten colours leaking from the words,
Flashing lights still reflect from the soaked tears,
Though blurred by the tears once splashed on it,
but the pain is intact in that past forgotten world.

I remember breaking down every time
I came across those dark age of my life
I use to feel like cold steel knife
stuck inside my heart sucking my life

The Errors of my judgment about some people
Cost me my esteem, confidence, & my individuality
Scar of those wounds had never lost its visibility.

I never realised when you pulled out that knife
Restoring my esteem and healed my every wound
Your hands on my scars hide them from my eyes
Your words filled colours I never knew existed in my life

Love for me you easily redefined
As you accepted me with all my dull & Shine
I shared my deepest embarrassing secrets with you
You took them all and burned them with your heat of love

Now When I flip through the pages of my life
I don’t feel the knife or see the leaking colours in the lines
Flashing lights still reflect from the soaked tears,
Though blurred by the tears once splashed on it,
but the pain is lost somewhere in the brightness of your world

Written By: Ritika Patel

!!! Rage of Unspoken Emotions !!!

Disgusted from my heart
With this natures virtue of life
As I stood in the line
Waiting for my share of Shine

I live with the rules of my nurturing
Morals I walked on, clutching
Dreams I believed on, hoping
Relationships I worked on, Trusting

All shattered with a deafening thud on my "Life's" Ground
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down..

As I walked on the edge of destiny
Hands clutched me on this ride, so topsy & turvy
I cannot fathom the price they asked in returned
Because of them now I shun my heart, so broken

Laughing memoirs of happiness and warmth,
Reflected through the tear I dropped on my broken crown
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down

Continued to walk aimlessly
Awareness lost in the illusions of reality
Offering insolence, grudging over my destiny
Hoping for courage to avenge for life's cruelty

I gainsaid the god's game asking for a showdown
As I waited for My Stars to Shine Down

Those hands asked for a filthy price
They supported me once but now they made me fall
Blinding me as they flaunted their own shine

I never invaded others dream
I never questioned others sheen
Then Why, when I am in the dark alley
They flaunt their meaningless trophy

When my heart only prayed for them to win the crown
In front of them they expect me to bow
When I still await my Stars to Shine down

Stabbing pain in heart, life so impossible
Burning tears, vision so impossible
Choked throat, speech so impossible

Broken strength, Faith so impossible:
For my Life to gain the Momentum..
For the Light to show me the Direction..
For the Reasons behind the Broken Relations..
For Explanations behind Failed Initiations..
For Dusk that never reached the Dawn
As I still wait for My Stars To Shine Down....

Written in - "Rage"

!!! Let me Fly !!!

Freedom is what I seek
When I was with you
I thought I loved you
You thought I surrendered
Bonded in the ties
Of whats wrong & Whats right

Freedom is what I seek
When I was with you
I thought I am happy
Never realizing its transitory

Welling up of Suffocation
As we fall short of Communication
Going away or letting you go
Is not "something" I would like to think
But Freedom is "something" that I seek

Now living without you
I think I am happy
But I am still suffocated
Stranded on the place we parted
You vanished in a blink
But I was disappointed with my feets
As Freedom is what I seek!!

Written By - Ritika Patel "In hope and prayer"