Wednesday, September 29, 2010

!!! To Love is You .... !!!

Love is not Fair...... Since I Loved you I liked the unfairness of Life .....
Love is not Painless..... Since I Loved you I am in Love with this pain .....
Love is not being Alone ... Then how can I be in Love with this Loneliness ....

Written by - Ritika Patel

!!! It surely Is.. !!!

Life is surely funny ...

Where Misery and Failures is the sarcasm &
Hard work & Destiny are the catch lines ....
If you catch the "catch" lines you might have the last laugh
if you sulk on the sarcasm you might
never understand the humor behind it.

Written by - Ritika Patel

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

!!! Past .... Still not too Far !!!

Why when forgetting past relationships, either good or bad, all the reliability and trust ends with the end ofthat relation.

Every time people from your past tell tales about you it makes you wonder whether you should be trusting the relationship you are in at present or not.. 

Nobody can predict the life of a relationship, Nobody can vouch for its sustainability, but some people from your past relationships, even when out of your life, still can stop you from being yourself in your present relationships.

You share yourself innocently with people you trust and rely on. Same relationships when breaks and your innocence in used by the people from your past with out any second thought makes you an introvert in your all future relationships thinking or rather wondering who will be the next one using you till your innocence dies away and you become like others, I still wonder, I do wonder.... 

Written By - Ritika Patel - "In Disappointment"

Monday, September 20, 2010

!!! Love ...... is it???!!!

"Love" for me was always overrated. The need of being with someone all the time and when apart the constant wondering what your love is up to and where he is, what he is doing. The desperate feeling of immediately sharing a wonderful experience or news with him or the excitement of meeting him, when you wait for your wall clock to tick away to your desired time.

I remember laughing it off when I use to see others going through this, "what a terrible state of mind" use to be my reaction. And I completely dismissed these feelings of the ones who did felt the same with me. As I was more to them than they were to me. But I was never able to connect with them that deeply even though I stayed in the relationship sometimes for their sake sometimes for the sake of the useless habit of seeing them in my life day in and day out.

Ironically now finding myself in the same situation, I hear the distant laugh of the people, the ones who are already way ahead than me in this journey. Feeling, what I feel every second of the day for you, I cannot fathom why "love" should not be overrated.

With your presence in my life my past seems so lifeless. With your presence in my days my past days looks like a dark night. With your presence in my nights I never knew that darkness could be filled with shine. I can never say now I regret the time we saw each other on that first night.

As you take my hand I get pulled towards life. As you hold me I can feel freedom from the invisible bonds of my past. I wonder now, is this what they termed as "Love" & I wonder is it here to last. I asked you that day "what it is?" you replied almost spontaneously saying "Love, what else do you think" as you smiled that killing smile.

In your eyes promises I do see. In your words calmness and peace I do feel. In your presence the clouds from eclipse disperses leaving me to bath under the rays of your love. I wonder if this is the love I do feel I wonder is this the Love I did see. Sharing words with you is always comforting, I never knew sharing silence could be so fulfilling. Why in your arms I do feel complete. Why without you my days are so obsolete.

Why my heart churns every time I see your name on the incoming call, why I curse the night after biding you goodnight. I wonder how long I will be able to keep this; I wonder how long will it be when it will be your time to leave too.

Love, I understand why you hold me tighter in every meet whispering promises for keeping my clouds of confusion away till we bid. Baby, I understand why you flip when we are apart because you know my way too practical mind will be building dams over my feelings to stop them from pouring. But I want to ask you how can you understand that it’s your hold that is keeping me with you, Baby how could you understand it’s your care and understanding of my mind and soul that I am connected to you so deeply. You asked me that day "So, What do you think it is? As usual my confused soul and practical mind snapped back answering you with another question " it??? And we laughed together for the hundredth time.

Written By - Ritika Patel

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

!!! The Winner Takes It All !!!

If you must Win, "Win" in a way that they can never stop applauding !!
If you must Lose, "Lose" in a way that they never stop recalling !!

Written By - Ritika Patel

Friday, September 10, 2010

!!! Random Scribbling !!!

I have been very lucky to be blessed with friends so wonderful that I am still in contact with all the close friends from my school, Graduation College and PG College. I just can’t imagine my life without this piece of puzzle called "friends" in my life which makes my life all the more exciting and adventures.

It’s amazing the kind of relationship I share with my friends, even after not being in contact for days together at times we still can talk for hours, when we do call - up, and talk about anything under the sun. I love such wonderful and easy relationships in life.

Recently, I got an SMS from an old contact of mine showing concern of my whereabouts. It’s so wonderful to get these messages from close knit friends because you exactly know they are your forever well wishers and so your answers are always honest if life is good the answer is so, and if not you tell the truth. But you get into a little confusion while answering to people like the one in question here. These people are the one who “only” act like your friend because they don’t have any and they are in need for friendship.

These People or so called "Friends" try to keep "you" as a "closest friend" in their life because they have none, and you fail to understand that, even when others try to make you see the reality because you are blinded with the temporary truth and satisfaction. All this while they play well with their convenience because they know you have everything to offer them - happiness, courage, calm, peace and support.

But these are the people who are the first ones to run away from you when you are so troubled with life that you run out of things like this to offer. This is the time when they see their convenience shoved out of the door and they start cutting corners. Or in some cases so called "friends" like this can shove you out of the door when they get the same things fulfilled with other people who are probably less troubled with life and willing to offer things which you temporary fail to offer.

But thankfully this troubled times in your life will help you see who is important in your life or who should be important in your life and this acid of troubled times which is burning you so deep can also help in dissolving the mask of these so called "friends" too. This is when you see their face, hear their real thoughts and feel their coldness. This is the time you see how much they are hating you and your troubles because they have to act like a support in it, this is the time you hear all their curses, curses so bad which can send a chill through your spine, this is when you feel how unacceptable your down turn is to them, all this while they fail to remember you were like a strong pillar in their bad times or you gave them an ear at the middle of the night.

This is when I get confused thinking what should I answer to such SMS's from these people because whatever curse they gave me in order to shove me out of their life has not come true as yet. Or what ever bad place they wished for me to be in, I am not there. How many times they made me realize that I never had anything to offer, to any one, in anything what so ever. And since that day I have been showered with only wonderful people, friends and companion in my life who constantly tells me how important I am to them.

So, when asked by these kinds of people - If I am keeping good? Then according to their definition of what "good" should be in my life (aka their wishes/curse for me). I should reply that "I am not at all good", in fact, unfortunately for them only the things I wished for has happened to me and none that they wished for me. So answering this will satisfy both the sides ... is'nt it?? LOL

Scribbled By: Ritika Patel

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

!!! I Dont Need You ... Or Do I ?? !!!

We dont belong together,I am aware
Neiher do we share any strings that can pull us back
How strange once connected with our souls
Now apart, as we were never together..
Leaving you is the wisest move of my history
As you only used me always, I am aware

But still sometimes its your and only your memories
That can put me to sleep in rutheless nights...
Now I am using you, are you aware???

Written By : Ritika Patel


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