!!! Honesty is What Makes The "YOU" !!!

Nothing that a relationship offer could be bigger than honesty. It will sound almost unprecedented but getting love, care, understanding and friendship from the person you love is way too easy. What is to be sustained in relationship, which also exists in utmost rarity "is the faith you have in each other" &"the honesty with which you dedicate yourself in a relationship".

I have all my life have been blessed with some gem of friends and most wonderful understanding parents (touchwood). And I hold this as a reason behind my "sort after" approach towards life, as my all the time "Calm & Composed" nature and my "crystal clear "understanding of the most "complicated" of relations, as many have told me over and over again. When you are emotionally secured from the childhood by your parents, and emotionally matured by gaining wonderful friends later in your life, than you are never looking for someone to fill those holes and void in your life which doesn't exists. More often than not it is only one of these traits that is dominant in the individual and the other is frequently left underdeveloped. It is this self realisation that you need which will make you realise what kind of partner you need and will be happy with.

So, probably not being in the race of finding some one to complete you, will actually lead you to the most compatible match for your personality and for the person you are. Which is where i got blessed with thankfully. And which has given my relations a clarity of expectations which is to be shared with each other keeping in mind to treat them as "necessary expectations" and not "irrational expectations".

And that is why what I nurture in my relation is having and giving lot of space and a faithful & honest association with my loved one. And this clarity makes you understand how very important it is to be honest with your love and give in your faith completely to one relation which means life to you.

I preach people, When in a relation never ever compromise on honesty and faith because if these have been wavered once in your relationship, you could for surely expect another blow like it in the near or the long future.... As I said it is easy to find, love, care, friendship and understanding, in its extreme way, in a relationship but it is with utmost rarity that you find some one who is with all his heart and soul honest to you and your relation and more than that honest to his own soul for that matter.

Love can be nurtured, if lessened,

Care to be found again, if lost,

Friendship comes voluntarily,

Understanding is relationships Virtue...

But honesty is its back bone, Unconditional,

And if Damaged, Unrepairable & Irrevocable.

Written By: Ritika Patel

"For those who in the haste of finding love, loses themselves"

!!! I Dare To Ask Why !!!

“When I look at you, I see forgiveness,

I see the truth.

You love me for who I am, Like the stars hold the moon,

Right there where they belong.

and I know I am not alone.”

“When my world is falling apart,

When there's no light to break up the dark,

That's when I look at you.

When the waves are flooding the shore,

and I can't find my way home anymore,

                                                         That's when I look at you.”

You, Who has stood by during all the thick n thin of my life even when sometimes in my sheer stubbornness I mess over your well laid plans for me, and still his love has sustained and increased with everyday. God is one Whom I put in my faith. God is one with whom I live with utmost ease.

But he makes me wonder, when he again brings back those things, that once took every ounce of my soul, to cut them out of my life. Its times like this that my faith wavers and I question whether I am putting my trust at the right place. And if I am doing what is “right” than why do you bring me to those forgotten lanes. Why when I ask for direction and peace from you. You hold my hand and drag me back to those dark alleys and make me lose not just my faith in you but my soul too.

Every now and then we cross our paths with the most painful past of our life “because the “Time”  that we have spend in our past, present or future, “Can Not” get completely erased from our life or from the lives of the ones who was/is/will be the part of it”. So coming across them is inevitable.”

He puts me in a difficult phase when he saves me from people's hatred, cruelty and betrayal that surrounds me. But he again brings them back in my life when they are the ones who needs protection from the same. Than I turn around and ask why? Why I had you and none when I was being pushed into the darkness and you serve them with helping hands when they need it. I ask you then Why you test my strenghts only after pushing me into loneliness while you keep providing them support to pass your own worst laid plans...

I have been clobbered more than once and more than I deserved. I ask you now for the first time to not show me directions if that is the only place where you have to lead me every time. Because the people who you put in front of me now & again are the ones who feeds on the courage, wisdom, strength, love and confidence of people like me.

So I ask you now, to not treat me as your child if you are treating them as your child too…

Written By – Who Else…

!!! Words That Cover Me !!!

Long Long Ago, I had my own script
I had words for my motivation
I had words for my inspiration
I had words to write my own destiny

Before they started hovering upon them
Questioning their intelligence, was their virtue
I was confused, whether to abide by myself or their ritual
But being my only defender, I gave in to their recital

I started believing their words
I trusted their blessings and their curse
Words once filled with wisdom, I thought
Words that destroyed me and made me worse

Words can bring the best in you,
Words can create the worst of you
They Chose to peruse the latter with me
And I nodded my head foolishly and almost willingly

It took me a while to understand their intention
I learned to my cost, it wasn't my redemption
Though fully aware of their meaningless structure
I know they meant nothing but destruction

I made my soul soundproof against their definition
Though broken by them cruelly, I still hear the distant echo
And I still feel my heart wriggle in that direction

Those were the words that once created and then destroyed me
May be that’s why I am scared to be a part of your story
You keep the book open for me to write my heart’s glory
But Whenever I try to, I hear those echo luring me insanely

Written By : Ritika Patel
“I know you deserve Peace & Answers, With this I hope you get them”

!!! Convenience of Escapism !!!

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First time I saw you in the Gala

Dancing in the arms of my better half
The warmth of his body failed completely
to divert the heat of passion coming from your eyes
I lost myself in your sight, And followed you out of the dome
In that shimmery full moon night

They say your spouse is the part of your soul
I love him from the bottom of my heart but you …
You gave me those lost pieces and made me whole
With your every touch the guilt spread in my veins like fire
But your presence was like a drug, that nothing else mattered

I took care of him, and loved him and made him my life
And then I leave him, I lie to him, I betray him everyday
When I walk into your home, hands in hands
I cry a little everyday for killing him like this
And then I smile looking at your sms of our next meet
Hardly could I wait for that raging passion to began

He loves me, he takes care of me, I know I am his life
But Then he trusts me more than I deserve
He shuts his eyes and escapes reasonability
When I don't reply his calls and sms’s when I am with you
And he carefully forgets to ask questions When I come back
And he carefully denies that I am covered with you

I look at him and hate myself, I cry and I scream
I make myself a promise that I wont rip my self apart like this
Lying beside you I made a promise, this is it I wont do it again
Though I love you but I love him too
You don't belong to me, But I belong to him now and forever
And I left you fallen and broken and crying
And as I moved out I know I am walking over your heart & Mine

Whenever I get late he stays up for me
With my favourite Mocha kept carefully beside the table
I looked at him and his killer smile which lights up
Every time I walk towards him,
As usual he didn't ask and didn't probe
We chatted half way through the night
And then I fell asleep in his arms, happy about the end of my dual life

The morning was clearer than many in the past
It was new and it was better but I feel the void building inside
Which you filled up and now without you I feel lost again
No, I wont think about you
I will stick to what my destiny has chosen for me

As I reached my bedroom
cursing my weakness of giving into your thoughts
I saw that now, I know, for some time I suspected
But I see now,the red marks on his shirt lying on the wash
And another ,
An anklet hooked in a sheet, which I picked up 2 years back for our room

He was a lousy cleaner, May be that’s why
Everything seems to be too perfectly placed nowadays
Is this Why he never probed me,
Because he was busy keeping me from probing

I stood there for a long time
Holding the shirt in one hand and the sheet in the other
Numbness got redefined that day for me
I was angry for his betrayal
Sad to know that its not working for both of us
Broken to know that all we share with each other is just “guilt”
Confused thinking, what we will be like,
when we will stop feeling even guilty for each other

I stood there for a long - long time
Before I reached for my cell
Saw your numerous calls and messages
And replied in few but self assured words
“I will see you at the same place, same time”
Love.
I waited till the cell beeped with
“Message Delivered”

And then I started with my daily chores….
As I felt relief spreading through my last core…

Written By- Ritika Patel

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!!! Shadows in Eyes !!!

I was never in love with you
No, It was your smile who screamed for my attention
All I could hear is the faint cries when you smile
I could hear the prayers of the desperation of being belonged to...

I was never in love with you
No, It was your eyes who spoke to me first
It was the whispers in them that I heard
It was the feelings in them that I captured
It was the invisible tears which shined at me

How can I hear your words when your eyes have a conversation of their own .....
Its the reflection of your heart in your eyes that I fell in love with .....
No, I don't know you ..... but shadow of your soul is what I am familiar with .... its your heart that I know ...

Written By - Ritika Patel

!!! More the Merrier..... I Dont Think So!!!

You took a step forth questioning hilarious traditions
And than you find yourself staring at your own reflection
Lost in the thoughts of "Did you make the right Decision"

You step ahead fighting against the world's insanity
Then you see your hands shaking, wondering
 "afterall who has defined normality?"

You raise guards to shun your heart so broken
Then you see all around and wonder
 "don't you ever again want to let it open"

You write and follow your own rules
You tear them off the next day
And more than often you are left with no clue

Its so adventurous to be "me"
Its best to be "me"
But there are so many of "me"
Unknowingly I rip my soul continuously...

Written By: Ritika Patel

!!! Dreams Are where the Roots Are !!!

First rays of light blinding her eyes, Oh! how she loved the mornings! The feeling of damp sand beneath her toes as it imprints her footprints into it. Admiringly she look back tracing the prints from where she had come; smile lit on her face seeing the beautiful play of the morning waves and the way they make all the prints disappear in a single motion of sheer play. She couldn’t trace her way back on the sand but she did saw a small town far away on the other side whose small houses can be barely visible from the naked eyes. But somehow just looking at that blurry scene can make her remember the scent of the sand of that small town, the warmth spreading the small lanes and no matter how loudly these waves scream at her she can still hear the laughter of kids around the corner of her home, in that small town, as they used to play on the streets.

A splash of water came as waves hit the nearest rock, bringing her back to the town it belongs to, the anger was apparent and the whispers from the sea “You are here now”, “you are one of us” as they again move back to disappear in the arms of the sea heading backwards far back where stood a bridge which connected the small town to this big town. She remember taking that journey herself when she was walking through that bridge scared of leaving the warmth and love of her people, confused thinking what the big town has in store for her. The long and tiresome journey was full of hatred, frustration, anger, confusion, fear, sadness but at the same time excitement thinking back she wonder how she remained sane enough to cross the journey even with all these flood of emotions. But she did and so did the others who were walking with her, behind her or way ahead of her.

But the journey wasn’t easy not because there were too many people or because she was still alone but because there were too many tears along the way. The helplessness of people, who need to leave their old town to find a better living in the new town. The tears of mothers as they say goodbye to their sons, the helpless but proud eyes of a father as he wave his hand towards his daughter not knowing when the next meeting would be. There were also people who were coming back to the old town to meet the peoplethey left behind, remembering their faces makes her heart still ache, the confusion and fear has gone now but so is the innocence of their eyes. They all seemed happy to her but their heart hollow. Nevertheless she took the journey and reached the lightning city whose shimmer was visible from the roof of her home. That was her first step in the big town and since then she is been running the race lost somewhere in the crowded skyscrapers.

But as these waves, the passer bys, the morning walker or the joggers crosses her thinking that she is one of them, she stood their giving shape to her ever building dreams. Her dreams lay where her roots are, she denies to strip her old town of her childhood memories and wisdom which gave her the place in the big town in the first place. She looks back at the waves looking at them dancing at the sea shore thinking that they had won her over. But they know nothing of her dreams, her ambition, her roots and her life. Because if they had known she wouldn’t be standing there where she is today. She smiled at the bewildered expression of the ways, slowly she turned and headed right back where she came from as if walking on her own footprints backwards, which were now nowhere to be seen. But she doesn’t need her footprints, because she knows where she belongs, where her wisdom belongs, where her dreams belongs, and slowly her lips whispers “My dreams are where my roots are”.

Written By: Ritika Patel

!!! A Backward Walk !!!

Flipping through the pages of my life,
I saw some forgotten colours leaking from the words,
Flashing lights still reflect from the soaked tears,
Though blurred by the tears once splashed on it,
but the pain is intact in that past forgotten world.

I remember breaking down every time
I came across those dark age of my life
I use to feel like cold steel knife
stuck inside my heart sucking my life

The Errors of my judgment about some people
Cost me my esteem, confidence, & my individuality
Scar of those wounds had never lost its visibility.

I never realised when you pulled out that knife
Restoring my esteem and healed my every wound
Your hands on my scars hide them from my eyes
Your words filled colours I never knew existed in my life

Love for me you easily redefined
As you accepted me with all my dull & Shine
I shared my deepest embarrassing secrets with you
You took them all and burned them with your heat of love

Now When I flip through the pages of my life
I don’t feel the knife or see the leaking colours in the lines
Flashing lights still reflect from the soaked tears,
Though blurred by the tears once splashed on it,
but the pain is lost somewhere in the brightness of your world

Written By: Ritika Patel

!!! Careless Whispers !!!

Heart feels the lightest when you have a careless banter with your friends. When words flow from your mouth without thinking twice or without weighing there inclination of being harsh, being soft, being negative or being politically correct.

Its wonderful to see how easy it is to open your heart to your friends without being scared of being judged or being misunderstood by them, because if they “Are” your friends these two words will almost never occur in this relationship.

Constantly exchanged SMS’s or a phone call after days or just whispers in the middle of the night talking about anything under the moon till its time to realise that tomorrows start needs some sleep too. Friendship is without a doubt the most easiest and most beautiful of relationships with zero investments but lots of mutual gains.

Life is full of ups and downs, Sometimes time is so harsh on you that it leaves you isolated with no one but your parents to hold you but than your life make sure that it gives you solid highs too. Its only the question and perspective of keeping the “faith”. Its very important to keep your friends very close in both situations; specially its important to realise the true friends who will like to stay close to you in these situations. Life seems way more simple with them around and its absolute blessing to have such friends in your life.

Its almost possible to lead your life without a lover or a boyfriend or your love of life but its almost impossible to “think” of your life without friends forget about “living it” without them. Friends are friends and its almost unprecedented to fill their place with any other substitute relation.

Written By: Ritika Patel “Blessed with some Gem of Friends”

!!! You Are My Sanity !!!

When I breathe through your skin

It makes me want to live a lit bit every day

When I see through your eyes

It makes me want to believe the goodness of god’s ways

When you look me in the eye

I feel the universe in my heart collide

When you cuddle me in your arms

I feel in my veins the ocean’s calm

Your glowing smile is my light in this dark world,

I give you my heart, my soul; you materialize my dream world..!!

Written By: Ritika Patel